I'm swearing off boys until April 19th.
Nothing can stop this perilous quest.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Good? Good.
I'm doing okay, I think.
I'm getting sick, and my body feels like death warmed over, but I'm okay.
It's nice to be okay.
So I had a bad day, it happens.
Still good.
Today I saw this guy I used to like, and my thought process went exactly like this:
Don't let him see me.
Sick.
Pee.
Nice shirt.
Where'd he go?
Plan, plan, plan.
Pee.
Oooh, that smelled good.
Nice shirt.
My hair is ugly.
sick.
pee.
Please don't let us see each other.
He's gone.
Oh, I didn't get to talk to him.
That's about the level my minds been working on for 24 hours.
I'm getting sick, and my body feels like death warmed over, but I'm okay.
It's nice to be okay.
So I had a bad day, it happens.
Still good.
Today I saw this guy I used to like, and my thought process went exactly like this:
Don't let him see me.
Sick.
Pee.
Nice shirt.
Where'd he go?
Plan, plan, plan.
Pee.
Oooh, that smelled good.
Nice shirt.
My hair is ugly.
sick.
pee.
Please don't let us see each other.
He's gone.
Oh, I didn't get to talk to him.
That's about the level my minds been working on for 24 hours.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Exausted.
I'm exausted.
My parents have been fighting so much, and I can't figure out why.
It's so frustrating, and the biggest thing I'm afraid of is that they won't be able to work it out.
I think i'm the most scared I've been in my life.
I don't even want to say the D-word, it instills this sense of fear in me.
But tonight, even if it was only for a few hours, my friends made it better.
Thanks guys :]
My parents have been fighting so much, and I can't figure out why.
It's so frustrating, and the biggest thing I'm afraid of is that they won't be able to work it out.
I think i'm the most scared I've been in my life.
I don't even want to say the D-word, it instills this sense of fear in me.
But tonight, even if it was only for a few hours, my friends made it better.
Thanks guys :]
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Spring
I love spring so much.
I walked outside today, and it was gorgeous.
The sun was shining, and it was just col enough so that it nipped at me.
All of the snow is melted.
Of course spring means AP tests, college applications, and projects.
But it was still amazing.
It also means...
SUMMER IS COMING!!
I walked outside today, and it was gorgeous.
The sun was shining, and it was just col enough so that it nipped at me.
All of the snow is melted.
Of course spring means AP tests, college applications, and projects.
But it was still amazing.
It also means...
SUMMER IS COMING!!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Wishing, breathing, hoping, feeling.
Today.
I don't know.
Sometimes, I wonder why life is hard. Not my life, but others. I'm not perfect, but what do I have to complain about? I've got food, shelter, and family and friends that love me to death.
But what about the people who don't have it as easy as me? What about Chase, who's suffering in the hospital? What about my mom, whose struggled so much lately? What about people who feel so alone, that they can't talk to anybody?
Maybe, I'm naive. I try to help, I DO, but sometimes I'm such a wimp. I want to reach out and help people, but I can't. Is it shyness? I've never been shy per say.
So I'll just sit here and write about the things that I should be doing.
I shouldn't write this for the world to see, but I'm going to anyway.
Today in sacerment meeting, this returned missionary kept looking at me, if you know what I mean. Cute kid, and he had a great voice, BUT then, he pointed to me in front of the whole ward and used me as an example of how I could teach my friends the gospel.
Can you say awkward?
So my ward, and my parents, are making wedding plans. They told me I would have cute kids.
How strange.
I don't know.
Sometimes, I wonder why life is hard. Not my life, but others. I'm not perfect, but what do I have to complain about? I've got food, shelter, and family and friends that love me to death.
But what about the people who don't have it as easy as me? What about Chase, who's suffering in the hospital? What about my mom, whose struggled so much lately? What about people who feel so alone, that they can't talk to anybody?
Maybe, I'm naive. I try to help, I DO, but sometimes I'm such a wimp. I want to reach out and help people, but I can't. Is it shyness? I've never been shy per say.
So I'll just sit here and write about the things that I should be doing.
I shouldn't write this for the world to see, but I'm going to anyway.
Today in sacerment meeting, this returned missionary kept looking at me, if you know what I mean. Cute kid, and he had a great voice, BUT then, he pointed to me in front of the whole ward and used me as an example of how I could teach my friends the gospel.
Can you say awkward?
So my ward, and my parents, are making wedding plans. They told me I would have cute kids.
How strange.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Feelin'
There's so much going on in my world right now... I haven't even taken time to blog.
Bad Allee.
I'm skipping Valentines Day, because I couldn't find anybody to go to sweethearts with. I really don't want to be the girl who is "Anti-Love" or anything, but I'm so confused by the entire male population. They're so on and off that it kills my brain cells.
Tonight...I'm going to the play with Tisha and her broface. Should be fun. I finally get to meet Kristen's famous "Jesse from Emery" haha...
I feel like I'm rambling for no reason.
Lately I've been having all these weird feelings. It's like I'm on the outside of the world looking in. It's not bad I guess, just lonley. That's the other thing... I'm surrounded by so many friends and amazing people that love me, so how could I possibly be lonely? It baffles me.
Part if it is the best friend/boyfriend thing.
I've never had a best friend. All of my close friends from when I was younger have moved away, or gotten lost in the mix. I have the greatest friends in the world, but they've all known each other since they were born. I'm really tight with them, but I'll still never have what they have with each other.
It's really hard to hang out with my friend's boyfriends. It shouldn't be a problem, but it's not so much jealousy as it is wanting to find somebody. I'm silly.
My articles SUCK.
This whole post has been like a really confused clown, hopping from city to city.
I am so weird. The end.
TOP TEN: Current Love Affairs
10. Bagels
9.David Archuleta
8.KanYe West
7.Swim Lessons
6.Ipod Touch
5.Satire
4.Hoodies
3.TISHA. BHAHA.
2.Sleeping
1.Churchball
Muhahaha.
Bad Allee.
I'm skipping Valentines Day, because I couldn't find anybody to go to sweethearts with. I really don't want to be the girl who is "Anti-Love" or anything, but I'm so confused by the entire male population. They're so on and off that it kills my brain cells.
Tonight...I'm going to the play with Tisha and her broface. Should be fun. I finally get to meet Kristen's famous "Jesse from Emery" haha...
I feel like I'm rambling for no reason.
Lately I've been having all these weird feelings. It's like I'm on the outside of the world looking in. It's not bad I guess, just lonley. That's the other thing... I'm surrounded by so many friends and amazing people that love me, so how could I possibly be lonely? It baffles me.
Part if it is the best friend/boyfriend thing.
I've never had a best friend. All of my close friends from when I was younger have moved away, or gotten lost in the mix. I have the greatest friends in the world, but they've all known each other since they were born. I'm really tight with them, but I'll still never have what they have with each other.
It's really hard to hang out with my friend's boyfriends. It shouldn't be a problem, but it's not so much jealousy as it is wanting to find somebody. I'm silly.
My articles SUCK.
This whole post has been like a really confused clown, hopping from city to city.
I am so weird. The end.
TOP TEN: Current Love Affairs
10. Bagels
9.David Archuleta
8.KanYe West
7.Swim Lessons
6.Ipod Touch
5.Satire
4.Hoodies
3.TISHA. BHAHA.
2.Sleeping
1.Churchball
Muhahaha.
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