Allee. Needs. A. Hug.

My feelings are so hypocritical.

I feel secure in where I'm at, but at the same time I want to move.

I'm ready to get on with my life, but the first step is hard. So hard.

Sometimes, I feel like when it comes to the male population, I always lose. I always fall for the guy who's taken, or shy, or uninterested. It's something that I've had to deal with my whole life, and it takes its emotional toll. Here is my top ten for the week:

10. The newspaper is out. Finally.

9.I get to play the Wii tonight. With a guy I kind of adore.

8.Even though I dropped my phone in the bathtub, it works.

7.SHAWWWWWWWNEEEEEE.

6. Utah State. Even though it took me four months to make a desicion, I feel really good about it.

5.Tomorrow, I'm fasting with a purpose.

4.I get to tacos tonight.

3.The blueberries are on their way to another churchball championship.

2.I have a job that I love. Pray that I don't lose it, okay?

1.March madness has started, and not the sports version! I'm so thrilled to read the Book of Mormon cover to cover again.

I have bad days. I had quite a few last week. But there are lots of good days too. The world balances out.

So I have a question for those reading this. Do you think there are times when you just shouldn't help people? Even if the person with the problem is one of your closest friends, is there a time you step back and choose not to be involved?

I don't know the answer. I'm not sure I want to, because it means I might have to do something about it.

I feel sick.
Mind blowing, stomach churning.
I always mess up this way.
I guess being a good friend to one person means being a bad one to another.
I'm trying so hard.
Yet, I messed up.
I think I'm going to hurl.
Then scream.
Then sleep.

Goooooaaaalss

Goals for the next six months:

Pick a college

Write a sonnet cycle

Make sure Ms. Parrish can never complain about my wrinkled papers again

Study harder in math

Compose my senior piano piece

Get enough scholarships to completely cover college

Get in shape

Get published

Find a newspaper job

Sleep

Vacuum my car (This really shouldn't have to be a long term goal...)