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"There will come a time when you believe everything is finished.
That will be the beginning."

This blog has held four years of my life. As I go back and read about the boys, the friendships, the heartache and the joy, I realize I'm not the same person I was at fifteen years old. With every beginning, there is an end. I think that for me, this blog has hit an end. After many weeks of consideration, I realized it's time for me to start a new journey. I'm not sure whether this means a new blog or not. Of course, it doesn't mean that I'm going to stop writing. It simply is time for something fresh.

:) If I were to do it again, it would be different. Let me rephrase. When I do this again, it will be different.

I'll post a link if I do start something new. But for now, adiós mis amigos. It will take me a few weeks to back all of this up, but then I'll take it offline.

New feels good.

You know you've been teaching way too many swim lessons when...

You know you've been teaching waaaayyy too many swim lessons when...

There's a permanent indent in your stomach where all the kids have jumped in and kicked you

You find yourself rocking out to "the wheels in the bus" in the shower.

You catch yourself talking to adults like they're three years old.

You spend half of your paycheck on shampoo.

The kids accidentally start calling you mom.

You don't have to shave your legs, because the pool chemicals take care of it.

You don't even bother to go home between shifts, you just sleep on a bench.

our diet consists of...well, anything within four feet.

You spend your spare time playing "guess what rule the scouts will break today".

Forget green. People start to mistake your hair for some type of animal.

You automatically hold your breath and close your eyes when you sit down, assuming you're underwater.

Even though I complain sometimes, I love my job. I couldn't ask for a better environment. The kids are the best part. Today, I asked Charity what her favorite food was.

"My favorite food is princesses"

"You like to eat princesses Charity?"

"Mmmmm yeah."

I especially love teaching the really small kids. They're so innocent, and they love anybody that will pay attention to them. :) Whenever I have a long, hard, frustrating day, a hug from one of these chilluns' can make it better.

Ah. I'm having a great summer.

Imploding

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That's how my brain feels. There are so many people I wish I could talk to, and yet not that much to say. The past three weeks have been filled with more emotional highs and lows than I've ever felt before. I've dealt with death, fell in and out of "like", and figured out the truth about my health, all while working 8-10 hours a day.

Yeah. Who needs sleep?